Why does this always happen to me?

Okay first off all i have in my house is NOTHING but junk food …my dad buys the shit, i ask him to buy healthy foods & its like he WANTS me obeast or something…I’m already over weight.i ate ice cream,a cupcake,brownie, a small chocolate bar….ALL of that in a hour….but when i woke up i ate 2apples…then in the afternoon i ate 2 bananas…then a burrito. Am i a over eater im thinking so…or maybe i eat when I’m bored.?

 ITS like im depressed or something. im stuck IN the house all day…its soo hot outside. but i cant go anywhere because im on the run….i shouldnt be saying thing online but w.e.

Its like i need to work on my self control.and have WILL power….in all honesty i would lose all the weight i can if only i had the right equipment in my home. But i don’t… i mean I’m full of energy..but i get lazy …sometimes i tell myself…>wtf is wrong with you? your fat why are you doing this to your self?..you were beautiful just only a yr ago?<.

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3 Comments so far

  1. tammylamb @ June 7th, 2009

    Sounds like boredom to me. Do you have any hobbies? That would be a good outlet. And then there is Dad. I’m sure he loves you - just has an old way of showing it - because he knows you love junk food and he’s out to pamper you by giving it to you. My whole family is that way! Although you ask for support they don’t understand. Keep trying and most of all LOVE YOURSELF. Forgive yourself. You would forgive your best friend. Be your best friend. Things will get easier if you take it one day at a time.

  2. candilovesjon @ June 7th, 2009

    another thing it could be is nerves.you say you’re on the run well that definitely has you feeling on edge a lot and with that feeling comes bad choices and weakness.Try to find ways to release stress that will help you stay away from junk. you are very young so this is a good time to build healthy habits that will stick with you for a lifetime! You can do it just find something you like to do and replace food for that.Hopefully your troubles will be resolved quickly and you can get on with your life! there is another website sparkpeople.com they have so many exercise videos maybe you can try those to get some exercise in! don’t give up you can do it! you can also pack up all the junk your Dad buys and put it in his room explain to him how it is bad for your health and ask him to keep it in his room away from you

  3. Dagny @ June 7th, 2009

    My mom buys tons of junk food too! We have 3 boxes of ice cream, bags of chips, cookies and so on.
    But it isn’t that she buys junk food, but its whats in it…the chips and pop corn she buys has trans fat in, and alot!
    But…I just don’t eat it! However, are you restricting your diet too much perhaps? On the weekends I often let myself have a cheat meal. For example yesterday I had sherbet and today I had M&Ms. If you restrict your diet too much, you get bored, rebel and binge. So I just let in little treats like that but I eat them in moderation.

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